the thought that gives me the creeps :)

oh im sorry , i forgot that i only exist when ur either bored or need to me to do something :)

you're not the oneeeee

i want someone that wont give up on me like everyone else did. sorry boy , you're the oneeeee.

we'll take pictures we ever we like.

but still , i feel like i have no pictures. at all

yeah

I don't want to be in a serious relationships cause i'm a teenager. I don't deserve to be hurt or hurting other peoples heart at a very young age . Loving someone is a kinda big responsibility for teenagers like me :) 

im just me.

sitting in my room alone last night. im bored. seriously bored. nothing to do that time. my house are quiet , vey silent than usually. feel like nobody in my house. i try to find something fun to do on youtube. but nothing fun there. i wanna text him , but i dont want to be call 'bataksangatnakdia'. since nothing to do , i open my sejarah book and start read it. after 20 minutes i guess , i fell asleep. and when i woke up from my bed , i check my phone. and got two text from him ! im happy but i dont think i should reply it. got tears in my eyes when i read it.  i dont understand how a relation should be. sometimes :(

hi :) im anis. i love taking pictures :)

accidently

im in a relationship. seriously. yeah , i have boyfriend. but , i dont like him , no i do like him. but he's my friend and i accidently agree to accept him. well , i dont mean to game him. no , no , i wont do that. but im afraid he will disappointed if i say that i never wish to be his girlfriend. and now i dont know how to solve this thing. huh !

what a small world

never thought i will see you again. you are so nice. thanks for coming in my life :)

first text he sent to me. he said , this is your secret admire :) i dah lama suke you. hari ni baru rasa macam nak text you :) boleh tak i nk kenal ?

aww , thats so sweet. pretend to be my admire which is true at the same time. haha well , i like you too boy. but i think its just too early dude. maybe one day :)

she's awesome :)

hey guys , she's my friend. say hello to her :) haha well , im just get to know her this year. and we started to be close lately. a lot of stories we share together. i dont know , i love to be friends with her. she's really funny always makes me laugh like crazy people :D haha and she's a good listener. i know , she's my best buddy ever! she dont make me annoyed. at all :) thats why i like about her. hahaha oh yeahh , her name is azlina but i called her mek ! thanks mek make my life beautiful ! haha

syawal 2011 :)

selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin :) i know its already late , but people said better late than never right. i hope you have a great raya and holidays.

aku suka dia sangat. kau tak suka ? so diam ahh.

i have nothing to do instead of reminds you , reminds you , reminds you :D hahahaha because im just love you too much <3 loves irvan.

i had a wonderful moments :)

28th july 2011 , stadium putra bukit jalil. im having too much memories there :) 

                                                         superb <3

                                                         awesome :)

                                                      goal ! :D

seriously i miss most of this part. go harimau malaya ! i miss to cheer like this. to jerit jerit like crazy people. hahaha and the time when i met someone :) hihihi after watched this game , im in love with football ! haha and yeah , our harimau malaya played very hard , but its just wrong strategy i guess. its okay , as a malaysian people we always support you harimau ! go , go , go harimau ! never give up !

i got his fever :D haha

tergodanya aku tengok dia ni. haha jatuh hati aku dekat kau masa tengok kau main dekat stadium tuu. haha fadli shas :) hehe

i dont care who he is.

nahh , muahh sikit untuk kau. haha i dont care who you are , where your from , what you did , as long as you love me :) tak kesah lah handsome ke , tak handsome ke. at least aku tak susahkan orang lain kan ? hahaha

tentang seseorang :)

tenang seseorang , reminds me on him. where is he now ? i miss him :(

badly.

i wonder when can we be together. like this :(( i adore you so badly lah irvan. i dont know why i cant forget about youuuuu. whatever people said about , i wont care. as long as , im happy to be close with you. balik lah cepat ! text me tau :'(

adore :)

you have no fucking idea how much i cried everyday just because of you. and you have no fucking idea how much i miss you now :( and you have no fucking idea how hurt are me to not receive any text from you. irvan , i know what am i done now is stupid. but i dont care , i just adore you too much and i dont know how to stop it. i dont why i keep reminds you lately. well , i just hope one day you'll find me because im out of tears now. pleaseeeeeeeeee :(((

loves :)

we like each other :)

i like him , he like me. we are happy.... errr happy what ? im not gonna say it. you will judge it :D LOL hehe

him him him !

and its all about him him him him him ! i dont know how to stop myself from thinking about him :( after a long time we dont text each other then suddenly he come back to my life. and now i started to missing him and how we used to talk before. you , come here please. i really wanna seeeee youuuuuu ! :''(

happiness

people like me dont belong to anyone i guess. thats why i never had someone that truly love me. i never found happiness with any relation for sure. maybe one day right. yeah , just maybe.

he :)

i rather texting with you even im very tired :) i miss you irvan , dont know when can i see you again :'(

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example one of the dress :)

:)

who bother ignore me first ? dont it you ? and now you want come to my life back. well , im appreciated that :) but i wont forget what you ever done to me.

youu !

My heart is filled with passion
That my smile can't contain,
And the lullaby of its love song,
Ever sings a sweet refrain.

Then there's that rush of warmth I feel
When I don't know just what to say,
When I stumble over the simple words
I once uttered every day.

Still each day I count my blessings
For what we share and what we do,
And I'll never forget the simple words
Is that I'm honestly in love with you!

sorry

We Might Not Be Close Again, But I Won't Ever Forget How It Used To Be.

come on before its too late

Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone. Too often we're too stubborn to say, 'Sorry, I was wrong.' Too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts, and we let the most foolish things tear us apart.

omg o.O

go online , then i saw something that i should not see. well , im okay. because you are not officially mine right. but , you have to know that , you will feel what im feeling now one day. thanks a lot :(

holidays -.-

well , this holiday are not my best holiday ever. bcos , i only do the same thing everyday -.- and i was like , laaaaaa can i do something else instead of this kind of activities , bangun , pergi tuition classes , makan , tidur. bangun , pergi tuition classes , makan , tidur. bangun , pergi tuition classes , makan , tidur. and bla bla bla bla. LOL , mum im so boring , can we go anywhere but not somewhere in kl , such as jusco , carrefour and a few more place that we always go -.- lets visit malaysia mum ! there's still a lot of places in malaysia we havent go right ? hahaha mum lets go ! mum pleshh :P

good life :)

yecks !

YOU MAKE ME HATE YOU MORE AND MORE ! SO , BYE !

weeee :D

cant wait to see my friends this holiday ! oh my god , it has been a long time i didn't see them. i miss them much :/ they are my superduper friends :D hahaha see you guys soon yaaa ! i cant wait for it ! hihihi

liar !

if you want or wish to be a liar , be the smart one lah babe ! LOL , POOR YOU ! HAHAHA

jerk !

well , i thought you are my friends from i was small until now. but im wrong with it. hmm , i dont think i should talk more about you , but what i want you to know that im not stupid as you thought :') so , sorry 'FRIEND' i dont think i will be nice to you anymore. sorry , kbyeeee :)

dear boyprengg :)

 sorry sweetheart , i may not be the sweetest girl for you but i have the most caring heart like                     Princess Kate :)

friends :)

      i dont need a thousand friends if they all are backstabber

as you all known

well , word do not break bone , but its break our heart. be careful on what you will say to people. who know they might hate it right ? or it can make them sad. because you have to know that , you dont feel what people feel :)

mum , saya dah besar :)

mama saya dah besar :) dah seventeen years old dah. thanks mama sebab jaga saya. tak ada mak yang paling baik dekat dunia selain mama. haha i love you <3 saya tak tahu macam mana bak cakap lagi. yang saya tahu , you're the hottest mum i ever had :'D haha kboboii !

hadiah dari merekaa. haha

birthday aku dah seminggu berlalu kan. hmm , sedih nyaa :( kenapa birthday aku cepat sangat kan ? before aku sempat jumpa boyprengg pun. haha tapi tak apa lah , aku rasa happy lah jugak kepada semua yang buat kejutan untuk aku. yang paling aku tak boleh lupaa , sir ven punya surprise lah paling cool wehh ! sampai aku pun nak menangis kot. haha semua ni tak boleh nak tulis macam mana , korang kena rasa sendiri baru lah tahu macam mana aku rasa time my birthday. haha aku tak ada lah dapat banyak hadiah kalau nak dibandingkan dengan zaman zaman baby dulu :) aicehh macam baby kan. haha tapi adalah sikit sikit dari semua orang. thanks guys ! i loveeyouall <3 haha

tikah belanja aku nii :) haha one day before my birthday. and aina pun belanja the same menu. thanks baby !

ini dari sir ven :) sumpah sir , saya tak tahu sir sweet gila sampai buat macam ni. haha sorry cake tinggal setengah. ramai dah curi perhiasan atas dia and wafi makan half cake ni. haha tak apa , sharing is caring kan :)

how to study with only less than 30 weeks ?

im scare , im scare , im scare. i only have less than 30 weeks to prepare for my SPM ! how leh ? i dont know. because im not ready yet. plus , i never start doing any revision now. mum , im scare. i scare i cannot give a good result for you. i dont know what should i do :(

when you turn to teenage world :P haha

hiii guys , i wanna share something with you where i got from facebook. and i agree with it. haha

 *welcome to your teenage years. where you'll be betrayed, stabbed in the back, heartbroken over and over again, fall for people you wish you hadnt, get into fights, have rumors started about you and have many regrets. but these are the best years 

dont you think so ? i think i am facing all this. enjoy it !

yeah you got me boy :)

i miss you noob :(

hyee babe , i miss you. long time dont text right ? hm , i miss the part when we are on the phone. it has been for a long time we didn't text each other right ? the last one is on your birthday. sitting in my room and im thinking about you every seconds :( where are you noob ? to me , you never make me boring when i am texting with you , when we are talking with each other. hm , im just want to talk with you and share everything with you :|

im seventeen !

on the last 19th april 2011 , im turn to seventeen. errr , really ? am i ? hmm , kay :|

pipit :)

last saturday , my lil bro khatam Quran :)

im suffer

im suffer from chalazion. no pain but its so not comfortable at all.

yeah , it look awful right ? so please dont make fun of me. sometimes i feel very uncomfortable with my eyes. i eat a lot of medicine but it still not work at all.

basically , you dont know how its feel unless you're the one suffering.

the day :)

last sunday , it was an awesome day ! :D

no words can express my feeling. hahaha

you and i both :)

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me Oh things are gonna happen naturally Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side And balancing the whole thing But often times those words get tangled up in lines And the bright lights turn to night Until the dawn it brings Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me Cause you and I both loved What you and I spoke of And others just read of Others only read of the love, the love that I love. See I'm all about them words Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive You and I, you and I Not so little you and I anymore And with this silence brings a moral story More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy Cause you and I both loved What you and I spoke of And others just dream of And if you could see me now Well I'm almost finally out of I'm finally out of Finally deedeedeedee Well I'm almost finally, finally Well I'm free, oh, I'm free And it's okay if you have go away Oh just remember the telephone works both ways And if I never ever hear them ring If nothing else I'll think the bells inside Have finally found you someone else and that's okay Cause I'll remember everything you sang Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of and others just read of and if you could see now well I'm almost finally out of. I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

walking under a rain :)

mum , im wet ! haha im just come back from school , and im wet -.- tadi mandi hujan bersama rakan rakan. haha best gila kot , we're holding hand while run from the rain. and yeah without using an umbrella. haha tapi memang seronok kan. yelah bukan selalu boleh mandi hujan kan. but the thing i hate it , im having my period that time. then , balik balik tengok baju sekolah dah kena period -.- pastu terus lari masuk bathroom. mandi mandi mandi sampai half an hour , then online , do some homework , makan and lastly tidur :D hahaha best gila hari ni. kalau hari hari hujan kan bagus :)

yeah , its hurt me :'(

today is the day.

hope you're not there. dont go to class okay ? dont ever make me notice you. thank you :") thanks budak baju merah :)

its just a dream

dear diary, 

          i know its just a dream for me to have you.

          i know its just a dream for me to love you.

          i  know its just a dream for me to get attention from you.

          i know its just a dream for me to make you sitting beside me.

          i know its just a dream for me to hear your voice.

          i know its just a dream for me to hold your hand.

          i know its just a dream for me to walk beside you.

          i know its just a dream for me to make you cry just because of me :'(

but i always pray that my dream will come true :) i miss you budak baju merah:(

my ex-boyfriend !

im in love with my ex again ! i dont want this happen ! bye sayang :'(

haha :D

when he walks beside me , aww he's handsome today :)
after a few minutes , aww shit , he's already have girlfriend.
okay , forget him -.- haha

speak now :)

i am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see your friends, and her snotty little family
All dressed in pastel
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid, somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not what you thought it would be
I lose myself in a daydream where I stand and say

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

Fond gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play a song that sounds like a death march
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be

She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me, you wish it was me
Don’t you?

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

So don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
Your time is running out and they said speak now

I hear the preacher say speak now or forever hold your peace
There’s the silence, there’s my last chance
I stand up with shaking hands, all eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I’m only looking at you

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

Don’t say yes, run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the backdoor
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out and they said speak now

And you say lets run away now
I’ll meet when I’m out of my tux at the backdoor
Baby I didn’t say my vows, so glad you were around
When they said ‘Speak now

waa , lamanya tak update blog :)

hye guys , since eyeryone know the school already open :( ee , malasnya , malasnya , malasnya. can i not go ? please , i dont want to go :( but i must know the reason why every parents send their children to school. i cannot disappointing my mum and dad. i must succes my examination with flying colours. i must work harder, so i can be very rich one day. i can buy anything i want, i can travelling wherever i want, i can have a very big house with all af my family stay together :) i can decorate my house, i can put all white furniture because i love it :)  i can wear very fancy dress, i can wear sparkling high heels, and i can buy cute bracelet.i want to have a life like this one day, i cant keep quiet, i must work something for my future. i must make my parents proud of me. i wish all this will come true :) i will love you school !

im not lonely :)

                                                 sometimes im jealous with this -.-

                                                        
                                                        but i prefer with this :)

                                   im not lonely at all. even sometimes i have to go anywhere alone.
                                      i never care to have boyfriend now. i love single life :)
                                                its okay boys , i dont need you now.

exam is just around the corner !

                  what ? exam ? oh mahn , why so fast :| im not ready yet :( help me please !

                i wish no exam in my school :) eveybody happy :D yeayyy ! hahaha please no exam !

               i hate this so much ! im scare with my results :-/ i dont want to go :( mum please !

dear diary :)

dear diary , i met someone just now and he stole my heart. he sad he wont give it back :) i cant let this happen. i dont like him at first and i dont even want to see his face. he takes my phone and copy my phone number. i hate him , he stalk my phone, he read everything inside it but i cant do nothing. now , everyday he text me -.- but , i dont think his annoying because he never force me to reply his text. i donk know wether i already fall in love with him or not but i dont have any feeling to him right now. and i dont want him to be mine one day. haha
                                                          

                                                   the end :)

                                

period pain is sucks !

woaaaaaaaaaa , its hurt me. really really hurt. i cant stand with the pain. i cry a lot when my period time. i cant even do any work. type messages pun tk larat -.- i just lying on my bed :/ i eat ubat tahan sakit a lot. i know its not good but i have too :(

why im so lazy -.-

                 i dont have mood to do anything.
                 why i become someone like this !
im just want to sleep , sleep , sleep and sleep without doing nothing -.- but i have to study for my exam. i hate this situation.

i wish i can be like this :) haha

anis's story :)

once upon a time , she love boys. she used to have boyfriend before it. after someone broke her heart , she hate boys now. and she dont even care if she dont have boyfriend forever. she lose interest in boys to fast. she hate them now. she is happy with my life now. no boys , no texting , no waste time and she can just give all her attention to her study :) she love to have life like this.

                                                                 The end.

hmm :|

i am in my room and thinking about you :( i've been listening to sad songs lately. i dont  know why i am became like this. im always  not in mood either. i dont feel like want to study for my exam. i dont feel like want going anywhere. i was lying on bed all day and listen teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift. im just trying to sleep and forget about you , i pretending the world is mine. im tired become like this.

he call me for so many times , but i dont feel like must to pick up his call. i put my phone away , away from me even from my room. i dont care , but i miss him :'( yeah , miss him a lot. but i dont want to disappointed for twice. i cant do nothing. and then , i received a text from him. saying that , he need me , he miss me and he want to see me. i didnt reply his text until now. he's not mine. i must pleased with everything happen. i felt sad when thinking about his text , got tears in my eyes when i read it. dude , im a girl who scare you will break my heart again. im sorry :/